I had a conversation with a couple of friends today about how I am no longer worried about what I look like. It wasn’t until I turned 33 that I finally decided that I would no longer be concerned with what someone else thought when it came to my appearance.
When I say I don’t care what I look like, I’m not throwing in the towel in regards to trying to look nice, but the things I do, I do because I want to. For example, I highlight my hair. I think I look better with brighter blonde hair than my normal, dishwater blondish/brown color. If someone told me they thought my hair looked better natural, I wouldn’t care. It’s going to stay blonde because I like it. I also use special face products to minimize wrinkles, but again, that’s for me. Not for you. I run to try and keep in shape, but I do it because I kind of enjoy it and I know exercise is good for me.
I have friends that wouldn’t wear shorts in the summer because they were embarrassed of their legs. It would be 95 degrees with 100% humidity and they chose to wore jeans. WHAT?! I have never had slim legs, in fact I have had my legs compared to tree trunks and that was when I weighed 130lbs, but I refuse to be uncomfortable and so my tree trunk legs will be bared for all to see. I wear a bikini to the beach and that is after 2 kids, both of them c-sections and 2 subsequent abdominal surgeries. There are scars galore and I don’t care – I like to have a tan stomach in the summer.
Speaking of tan stomachs in the summer, I wore a bikini when I was 8 months pregnant with Kamryn – and then I took a picture. I showed this picture to my grandma once and she said “Oh God, Amy! Look at that!” And then she laughed uncontrollably. Hee hee – it’s kind of shocking.
So go ahead and take a gander. Bear in mind that I did not deliver that baby for another full month and 5 days after this picture was taken. Yep – just one little 7lb, 1oz baby girl. If you are fearing swimsuit season and concerned that someone might be judging you because you don’t look like the model that wore the magazine in the catalog, just remember some people like to wear a bikini with a freakishly large belly hanging out.
You know, I didn’t realise Kamryn is only a few months younger than James… I don’t know why, I thought she was younger… anyway, I agree with you… you can’t live your life by other people’s expectations
Rory is the younger one – he’s only 3. Kamryn is getting a little long in the tooth! Ha!